True story of coping with mental illness in our family After 12 years in China servicing as Missionaries during the Japan invasion and civil war, Rev Gerald & Sylvia Zimmer return to America on their second furlough. Little did they know they would not be permitted to return to China. They accepted pastorate position and shortly thereafter were met with the tortures of mental illness when Rev. Zimmer experienced mental illness. This book is written for those experiencing mental illness in their family. Those who are experiencing deep valley experiences. Those who are cringing in the darkness of despair. The courageous brave --- who walk with a face bright and gay even though your heart has other words to say. The families of those with loved ones confined in mental hospitals. Those who have lost a loved one after mental illness. Grieving the loss of a child, partner, parent, sibling, or friend. Clinton Stanley "Stan" Zimmer, is Author, graduate of Ashland University, married to Patricia Zimmer with four children and nine grandchildren, Author, 30 years with IBM as International Marketing Management in USA, South American and Asia Pacific, leader of numerous trips into China with medical and English focus with MSI International. Founder of Zimmer Foundation for China, member River Life Church, leader of adult Bible studies, and adult leader with Boy Scouts of America in North New Jersey.