There is a profound difference between arriving and resuming. Arrival implies you were somewhere else, somewhere foreign, and that this life is a fresh beginning with no prior history. But that is not the truth of what you are. You resumed - the way a story resumes after you set the book down to sleep. The chapters were written. The characters were waiting. The plot had momentum.
Allow the Lord of Hosts to enlighten you as best he can in this trilogy of books designed to help you wake up to the world around you.